I wanna run through the halls of my high school, i wanna scream at the top of my lungs

If only I could go back to my high school days, I would.

Way back then, I was the type of student that would go straight home after classes.  Some days I will stay at my friend's house for some girl bonding but seldom did I go home very late.  I have never tasted alcohol with my friends who are, by the way, the kindest and most parent-obedient friends I've ever had.  I am thankful that I was with those kind of people in high school but sometimes I daydream of being that "bad-ass rocker-chick that still gets excellent grades even if she goes out all night, partying with friends, drinking all the margaritas in the bar and vomiting in the sidewalk after having more than enough alcohol".

Yeah, for the nerdy girls like me, that is the idea of "SUPER COOL".   These people seem to have all the fun in the world.  Sometimes I wish I was less supervised so I can do anything I want.  I wish I had hung out with all the cool people in high school, the jocks, the rockers, the cheerleaders and others.  I wish I made more friends, other than my books.  I wish I had known everyone in my batch.  I hate myself for not doing that.  I hate myself for being arrogant to my batch mates.  I know they always had thought of me as the "snob girl in the star section" and maybe I can't do anything about that anymore. 

Now in college, I try to socialize more.  I hang out with people, I stay in school longer, doing nothing.  I am having fun.  Although some still think that I am taking studies too seriously, I think that is not the case.  I take full loads every semester, try to do good with the subjects while keeping in balance my academics and social life.   I get suitors once in a while but having a relationship is not yet in my mind.  I have discovered that flirting in moderation is enjoyable too.  Ok now that is weird.