I just can't find things to write about, or think of interesting stories to tell.  And I am preoccupied with things like my org and acads. 

The truth is, my life has never been this interesting.  Great things are happening to my org this semester.  An increase in application, more fun members, more bonding times, and a whole lot of new experiences.  I really hope this surge of new things will come continuously for us so we can be the new and improved CREST come engg week.

As for my acads, I have a big load this sem, I should start taking things seriously now.

About my love life, my head is up, I think someone's poking me in the elbow.  Let's just wait and see.

About my gimik life, I already know how to drink two red horse and not be drunk! wee!

I actually can't believe I wrote something in the "gimick life" part... hahaha... I actually have a "gimmick life!"!

I'll try to update this blog more frequently from now on, but I can't promise that I can bloghop anymore.  And for that, I should not be expecting comments anymore! haha.. poor me... ok I'm not fishing! 

Way back then, I was the type of student that would go straight home after classes.  Some days I will stay at my friend's house for some girl bonding but seldom did I go home very late.  I have never tasted alcohol with my friends who are, by the way, the kindest and most parent-obedient friends I've ever had.  I am thankful that I was with those kind of people in high school but sometimes I daydream of being that "bad-ass rocker-chick that still gets excellent grades even if she goes out all night, partying with friends, drinking all the margaritas in the bar and vomiting in the sidewalk after having more than enough alcohol".

Yeah, for the nerdy girls like me, that is the idea of "SUPER COOL".   These people seem to have all the fun in the world.  Sometimes I wish I was less supervised so I can do anything I want.  I wish I had hung out with all the cool people in high school, the jocks, the rockers, the cheerleaders and others.  I wish I made more friends, other than my books.  I wish I had known everyone in my batch.  I hate myself for not doing that.  I hate myself for being arrogant to my batch mates.  I know they always had thought of me as the "snob girl in the star section" and maybe I can't do anything about that anymore. 

Now in college, I try to socialize more.  I hang out with people, I stay in school longer, doing nothing.  I am having fun.  Although some still think that I am taking studies too seriously, I think that is not the case.  I take full loads every semester, try to do good with the subjects while keeping in balance my academics and social life.   I get suitors once in a while but having a relationship is not yet in my mind.  I have discovered that flirting in moderation is enjoyable too.  Ok now that is weird.

It is really heart warming to receive messages from people I didn't expect to even remember this day.  But they did and it made my day.  Knowing that I did somehow made a mark on the lives of other people is a great accomplishment for me.

Maybe the reason why May3 was so ordinary is because May6 is not.  I hope people will show up on that day.  I am really nervous! Wee! 

And I thought I could relax this summer, I guess I was wrong.  After taking over the presidency of the org, my schedule has become more hectic than ever.  But I learned an important thing, if a person doesn't like to help, i should not bother myself trying to convince him, it will only make me feel bad.  Even if that person doesn't say it explicitly, if i can already feel that he doesn't like to do things, I won't make myself feel bad anymore.  It would be a favor for me and and for him.

Wala.. drama na naman.. SAUCE!! :P 

• makakain sa Subway
• makagraduate ng college
• makapag-wall climbing
• makapag-bungee jump
• makasakay sa airplane
• makasakay sa helicopter
• magkaboyfriend
• magkaasawa
• magkaanak
• magkatrabaho
• maging mayaman
• makabili ng mga gamit na super mahal mejo mahal na rin ang digicam diba??
• malasing
• makatulog sa bahay ng kaibigan salamat paolo!
• makaakyat sa bundok
• makapagsurfing
• makakita ng snow
• Mahawakan yung kamay ng crush ko
• makaperfect ng exam sa math
• maka-uno sa kahit anong subject
• matapos ang lahat ng required number ng PE
• makanood ng UAAP
• mapanood ang Purefoods ng live
• makanood ng tunay na rock concert
• matuto lumangoy
• makapag- PDA [kahit once lang sa buong lifetime ko, matry lang]
• magkaroon ng digital camera meron na!!
• magkaroon ng mp3 player

Yan anggaling.  I found this list on my old blog and i decided to update it.  those in orange are the new things that i've accomplished.   I last updated this list Septamber 14 of last year.

Yey CS ulit this sem! Aylavvit! 

It's amazing to think how they have survived those 50 years.  It must be nothing but pure love.  For me, my grandparents are the epitome of a good couple.  The perfect example on how to raise children and grandchildren.  They may have come from the poor but their dedication to family has let them produce such successful children.

What I like most about them is how they glorify God, thanking him for everything, every time.  I could only wish I have such a strong faith as them.  Maybe this is one of their secrets in keeping a strong marriage.

Every couple dreams of someday being able to celebrate fifty years of partnership.  My grandfather has only one tip for every one who wants to be like them, and I quote,

Sa mga nangangarap din na umabot sa 50 years, may isa lang akong tip sa inyo.  Bawat umaga, sa paggising niyo, wag niyo lang kalimutan huminga.

And that's why they call us the "Adam's Family".

Happy Golden Wedding Anniversary Lolo and Lola, even if I know you won't be able to read this, i just want to say I love you and thank you for all the good examples.  Truly, you have remained faithful to the vows you've made some five decades ago.

Angel Usi Guanlao - Aurora Gonzales Amigable

50 years of love :) 

March 31 1957-2007 

Matagal akong nawala dahil maraming nangyari sa akin.  Nawala ang aking mahal na digicam noong February 25. Eksaktong anim na buwan pagkatapos ko siyang bilhin.  Hindi ako makapaniwala na ganun ganun na lang iyong mawawala sa akin.  Napagluksaan ko na ito at sana hindi na ito mangyari muli sa aking bagong biling cellphone.  Ito'y isa namang Motorola L6, ang kakaiba sa kanya ay color pink siya!  Cute di ba?  Muli, kagaya ng aking digicam, pera ko nanaman ang pinangbili ko sa cellphone ko.  Ang yaman ko! haha joke lang.

Pero hindi naman puro masama ang nangyari sa akin.  Kaakibat naman ng pagkawala ng Digicam ko sa Baler, Aurora ang experience ng first time na mag-surfing.  Oo, as in SURFING! Surfboard, wax at waves! Surfing talaga!  Kakaiba ang feeling ng dinadala ka ng alon.  Kahit sobrang sakit ng katawan ko pagkatapos, masaya pa rin.  Napuno ang katawan ko ng pasa at mga sugat pero ok lang sa akin, dahil isang walang kapalit na karanasan naman ang kasama ng mga galos na ito.

Nung weekend na iyon din una akong nakainom ng beer.  Grabe, halata talaga na hindi ako sanay uminom dahil naka isang bote pa lang ako ng SanMig Light, nahilo na ako at umakyat na agad sa room.  Nakakahiya sa mga kainuman pero wala ako magagawa.  Promise, sa susunod, malakas na akong uminom! haha! joke lang! :)

Malapit nang matapos ang semestreng ito, balik buhay blogging nanaman! Two weeks na lang!!! :) 

Tinatamad na akong mag-blog.  Bakit kaya?  Ah, kasi minsan pinagmumulan lang ng gulo ang mga sinusulat ko dito.  Hindi naman kasi lingid sa kaalaman ng mga kaibigan ko na may blog nga ako at syempre, dahil available itong mabasa online, nababasa nila ito.

Nahihirapan na akong kausapin yung isang kong kaibigan.  Hindi ko na kasi alam kung anong sasabihin sa kanya eh.  Nabasa niya ang blog ko at feeling niya isa siya sa mga tinutukoy ko sa isa kong post.  Di ko talaga alam kung anong gagawin.

Nakakalungkot lang sapagkat dahil doon, nawalan na ako ng ganang sabihin ang mga nararamdaman ko dito.  Nakakalungkot dahil kapag tinigil ko ang pagsusulat dito, mawawalan na ako ng hingahan ng iniisip.  At nalulungkot ako dahil parang sa tingin niya nagbago na ako.

Sorry magulo ako. 

Quitters never win. Winners never quit.

Just when I thought I could handle all the pressures of college life, someone taps me in the back and reminds me I almost failed math17.

Engineering is really hard.  It's not like the social sciences wherein you only need to understand life to pass.  In Engineering, pure common sense will not suffice.  You have to back it up with fancy math skills and a high tolerance of what Newton loved.  It's not one or the other, it's all or nothing.

But I always remember the quote above.  I learned that way back in high school.  And it doen't take a rocket scientist to figure this one out.  Once you quit, you take away the chance of possibly succeeding.  If you continue the fight, you have a fifty-fifty chance of ending up at the top or falling down the hill.

So I must gather myself together.  I have 4 exams next week and I can only wish myself luck.  I just have to remember: SHIT QUITS! 

ps: tae yun. nakakainis. may dyug na pala yung crush ko. asa talaga ako. 

However, I always hear people saying that life is too short and you must tell the person you love how you feel because you cannot be sure if he will still be around tomorrow.  You should seize the moment, take every chance that passes you by.  Do everything that you must so that whatever happens, you won't spend the rest of your life in misery, walking through the what-if's and may-have-been's with a long face.

Easier said than done I say.

You see, doing this is a risk.  It's like entering a dark maze.  You know it's a maze.  You know you could get lost inside, you could go hungry, you could not see where you'll be heading.  You could die, or you could survive.  You know it's a fifty-fifty chance of succeeding, but somehow, the thought of failing overpowers the thought of possibly succeeding.  Then you lose hope and start walking away from the maze.  You then forget why you're even there in the first place.  You try to convince yourself that walking away is no big deal.  Everyone does it, anyway.  But then you're not convinced by yourself.  You'll try to find something that will be more do-able for you, just to console yourself, just for you to feel better about what you've failed to do.  You'll try to divert your attention to something else but deep inside, you know the maze is still there, waiting for you to explore it.  The finish line is blurred but you know it still wants you and you definitely want it.

It is an endless cycle.  Wanting, dreaming, thinking of doing it, saying "maybe not", then thinking again, saying "or maybe yes!", then thinking again, walking away, regretting... It will go on as long as you haven't decided to end it.  And there's is only one sure way of ending it, just do t.

I still lack the courage to do things. The outcome will be the number one consideration.  And, for as long as rejection is one of the endpoints in this equation, expect me to shut my blabber.